Tonight I lay in bed and watched Dirty Dancing. It is the 20th Anniversary. I was tiny when it was released but I clearly remember watching it years later. My friends big brother owned it. I must have been 8 or 9, junior school age. Her brother looked just like Jonny Castle, Patrick Swayze's character. This must have been the age I discovered lust. Teaching me all those dancing moves, his body so close to mine, him playing the songs on the guitar and teaching me the lyrics. Sudden I became aware of the body I was developing and sex was soon on my brain. That taught me that I was very sexually aware and that I was most definately straight.

Over the years I have lusted over selected male species and I have managed to get all but that first illicit one. Was lusting over Dirty Dancing at such a young age a sign of things to come?

My crushes over the years have not gotten any less frequent. At least now as an adult I can act upon them, and becoming an escort has meant I can carry out all those hidden desires in my head.

I have tried many of the naughty dirty thoughts I have had. If the first time puts you off, you owe it to yourself to try again.

I don't remember the first time I was intrigued by another woman's body. You are always aware of those around you, I think my intriguement didn't happen until well into puberty. I never had a crush on a female. I always pondered on the faceless female. I wondered how their touch and kiss was. I had kissed other women but not until I was well into my escorting life. My first kiss with another woman was with another escort. She reminded me of an older me. I used to look up to this confident sexy woman. My first threesome was with this person and it was a disaster, I was 22 she was 32, apparently bi but nothing happened between us other than a kiss and boob grope. My poor client. He did know that it would be the first time though so he should have known not to expect the earth. All that night did was make me more determind to try those waters out.

The next female was bloody awful, no kissing, only closed mouth movements, no touching and no 2 girl interaction, on clients contact was limited. I really would feel sorry for a man that booked this person. It is all about kissing, touching and getting personal, well it is for me.

My first female kiss out of work was amazing, soft yet firm, sexy as hell, and the fact that there were so many people watching was even more of a turn on.

It took me years of escorting before I found the right person to work duos with. There have been many disasters over the years. GIRLS, clean your crutch. Clean your teeth. Put a friggin smile on your face. I have lost count the number of bad 2 girl experiences I have had. I can count on two fingers the ones that sexually were great. You would never guess them, as none of you were there. The spanish girl in Amsterdam that made me writher and scream. Or the four of us in my bed that one special night. I could not look my neighbour in the face for months.

The thing I have discoverd about my sexuality is that there has to be a penis involved. As much as I love the touch and kiss of a woman I love all that a man has to offer.

I still lust over men, mainly clients I have met, and the odd time, very rarely out of work. In work you are like super heroes to me. Something special that only we know about. Strange but true. Maybe it is because you help share my saucy secret. Or maybe because you always perform without complaint or protest.